Getting Started

First of all let me say I am in no way a great writer. Probably one of the worst you will ever come across. After talking with a few of my friends I decided to give this blogging a shot. I've needed a place to put my thoughts and I figured what better way than to blog about it. I've been through a lot in the past 5 1/2 years. Multiple, test, doctors, psychiatrists, you name it I've probably been through it.
I am now seeing a psychotherapist that I adore. She treats me with just therapy, which is what I wanted. I hated being on all the medicine others wanted to give me. She has changed my life in the short 10 months I've been seeing her. This blog is going to take you through my journey from being the person who stayed in her dark room in bed all day, to being a wife, and Mother to a almost 2 year old that has fought a battle and is still fighting to become the person I want to be.


My first post I figured I would start from the very beginning.

 In December of 2007 my life changed. I was working as a Customer Service Manager at a huge retail store. I started feeling lightheaded, my heart was racing, I was scared. I had no idea what was happening to me. I couldn't breathe, and the next thing I know I was surrounded by people. I had passed out from hyperventilating. That day would forever change my life. It set off a chain of events over the next several months of trying to figure out what was happening to me. Doctor visits, trips to the emergency room, CT Scans, EEG's, EKG's all which came back fine. That's when my family doctor told me I needed to start seeing a Psychiatrist. I refused for months, finally my husband told me it was time to face the facts and stop being stubborn. So I went, well what do you know, I had a panic attack sitting in this mans office. He put me on medicine (which I HATED taking), and I wish I could say that was that and I was all better, but this is just the beginning of my journey down this road......